Healing from Toxic Relationships

Inverted HeartHello, my name is Lolly,

I’m a woman of age now, but I’m still bothered occasionally over having a rather heartbreaking long-term toxic relationship with an only sister who is a year younger. I’ve broken contact with her out of self-preservation and because of continued problems!

Undoubtedly, we both have “issues” and or personality disorders. I’ve attended years of therapy and have read many self-help books regarding healing. I am disappointed that professionals were of little help regarding my sorely needed healing process. I haven’t been able to connect with any one that can understand the nature of my suffering. Our parents (now deceased) actually enabled the sibling rivalry, playing favorites between us.  Other siblings exacerbated the issues by their indifferent non-empathetic attitudes. Trauma episodes impacted within  and I’ve carried a heavy lifelong burden alone, with no one to scream in my corner so to speak.

I recently searched for data about a gruesome murder committed by a distant family member which seemed to have triggered flash-backs of the trauma between my sister and I. I experienced an outbreak of anger over all this and have come to the realization once again I cannot expect anyone else to understand. I think this scenario has added to my problem with self-harm which is a volume of it’s own. I believe in a Higher Power which perhaps is my only hope.

I may post again and I can supply more details if needed. Please feel free to post and share things you find relative. If you have or are experiencing similar pain and loss issues, I empathize with you. I am new at blogging but desire to reach-out. Thank you for reading!

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One thought on “Healing from Toxic Relationships

  1. Hello Lolly,

    I read your most recent post and I can tell you I fully understand how you feel about your sister. I have a younger sister, we are 8 years apart. She too had hurt me many years ago and I had to set boundaries with her she just could not stay within, so I had to stop speaking to her.

    It trickled down to where my older sister and my father eventually stop talking to me all together. She has a high influence on my dad. And? To the day have no idea why he stopped talking to me. Does it hurt? Yes, but I forgave, came to accept and move on in life. IT has been 10 years now, and they still don’t talk to me.

    My feelings are, they are the one’s missing out, not me. I have worked very hard in my recovery to heal and make amends with those I may have hurt. Sometimes, there will be a few, that no matter how hard you try?, just don’t understand or “get it.”

    Keep your chin up and keep moving forward! You are not Alone. 🙂 🙂

    Author & Columnist, Catherine Townsend-Lyon

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